I’m not sure when it started but it’s become so extreme that I don’t even realize I’m humming until I think about the song…and that can be in 5 seconds or 10 minutes. I’ve been trying to stop though. Telling myself that I can only hum when I’m at home but I don’t think it’s working. It’s like a smoker trying to quit, but if their body is already used to it, then they’ll be suffering more problems. What am I supposed to do? Sometimes I think that people can hear me hum, but some people don’t seem to notice at all.
The only reason I hum is because singing is probably 5 times more embarrassing. I used to have friends that would sing out loud every single time at recess. I would never sing with them though. It’s okay, since they were good singers. I’m not sure if I’m a good singer but I have gotten better than 3 years ago. I didn’t even know how famous people could be famous for singing, since everyone else could sing. I realized that you needed to have good breath control and some type of attraction to your voice.
How am I supposed to do this, though. I mean I’m probably going to have to live with music for the rest of my life because (anti-hipster hypocrite mode) music is a way to express yourself but in a way where people can enjoy it too; not having to listen to you nag about why your life is going through hell.
I guess I’ll just try to stop myself every single time I start humming and see if it can be helped. If it can’t I’ll take it as fate to have this power of throat enhancing.
‘Cause it actually does help my throat so much more. My voice seems clearer, I don’t feel as sick all the time, and I’m stabilizing my vocal cords from having to notice puberty…my voice has never cracked, though. My sisters voice did crack a few times and I did point it out but that has never seemed to happened to me. I must just talk so much the voice cracking just passed me.